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| Hey wow....its been a while! yeah umm life has changed a lot since the last time i wrote in here...paul was a jerk to me over break! okay first he tells me that he wants to work this out because he is "throwing away a good friendship" and i was happy! i mean i tried for months to get him to say that! so i fell asleep and i wake up with 3 new txts! so i start reading them : first one: "hey since we didnt make out at the movies can we the next time we hang out?".... second: "nothings changing i still want to sleep with you"....third: "i was just joking with you i never wanted us to be friends and i cant wait for those names your gonna call me!" WHAT THE HECK! all in like 2 hours! i was soo upset! honestly why did he do this to me...why would anyone want to put anybody through all this! what could cause this mess? soo yeah its been really really hard for me! when i came back from break just looking at him i bout dropped at my locker and cried! i couldnt believe that the paul i dated turned into the biggest JERK ever! i miss the old paul! i found a note he wrote me and i was like now thats the paul i liked!!! im slowly getting over him and i cant wait until the day he realizes he was wrong and apologizes! i need him to know that i was right! i need him to know that i was truly sorry and i want him to believe that i know i messed up and that i would do anything to take that back....but i know i cant! but oh well! i guess i just need to find somebody else to help me through this! seems how my bestfriend just doesnt have the time to talk ne more. i need to get over this and i need to move on! but i dont know how i could possibly do it alone!!! god how could my life go from being SOO GOOD to SOOO TERRIBLE!?! honestly?! but yeah i guess there i just spilled out ALL my feelings and now i just have to wait for the one person to help me through all this crap! i know i need to move on and i know that by living in the past i can never move on for some better things! well yeah HELP! | | |
| Wow! i havent written in this thing in forever! lol...my bad! well a lot has happened! Paul and I are done for good i guess! he says he wants nothing to do with me so whatever! im fine bout the whole thing now but a couple weeks ago i felt like i was a mess! i mean what do you do when someone tells you that? i didnt know how to react so i tried HARD to get things back to before but it didnt work so whatever! i care bout him still and he knows that but i guess it doesnt matter! lol oh well! lol so thats all thats happened these past couple of weeks! THE WHOLE TIME! that and WORK BLAH!!!! | | |
| So last night i was txting Paul and well to make a long story short we are back together again....(lol) who wouldve guessed that one? lol ..... yeah but then he called me like at 11 and he actually talked to me....! He said that i was being too quiet and that now he knows how i felt! i told him i was sorry for breaking up with him and he took all the blame and said i was right the whole time and that it wasnt fair to me! Gosh.....im right! lol but yeah so hopefully it doesnt turn out being like last time....where we NEVER talked lol! so guess now im NOT single! well im gonna go foods ready and im starving! P.S. It sux this is a 3 day weekend and im getting sick! My throat hurts sooo bad lol! dang it! | | |
| Hey Everyone! well life is like hectic!! too much is goin on right now! i mean i have school n then work plus homework! gosh.... my life just sux! i dnt wanna grow up! thank goodness im nt an adult! i would die! lol....! 3 guys like me...! its crazy...... ! i love it...! Stevie was asked out by Bryce Bender.....(Norm) lol inside joke...kinda sorta....! ha ha! well i dnt know wat to say ne more so im gnna go! | | |
| Oh boy! School starts tomorrow! it doesnt feel like it should be starting already! i mean it seems like just a few weeks ago we were trashing the school with our papers and now....were going back? Ahhh....but hey i guess now im a JUNIOR....! heck yes...!
Yesterday....i was working and i had soo much fun! i talked with George the WHOLE time...! great fun there and then he kept throwing onions at me! what the heck i hate them nasty onions! lol...well he left me at like 9:15 and then at like i dont know 9:30 or 9:40 people finally came thru drive thru and all..! well lets say the guy is REALLY cute (lets say hot) and then he gets up to the window and all and his friend was in the passenger seat okay? well she looks at me and is like hey my boy here is shy will you give him your number! im like whoa! okay so i did...
well now im kinda like well i feel bad..! i mean paul...what do i do bout that? but then again im like who cares.....he obviously doesnt b/c hes NOT calling me and doesnt want to i guess...so i dont know i guess ill find out i dont know! | | |
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